I wanna act as if me approaching 30 days of walking consistently isn’t such a big deal, but it is. I really see more and more that even though I believe its gonna be easy since I’ve finally made it up in my mind to do this…I see that its truly not going to be a walk in the park. Lol, no pun intended. (ya get it…me walking everyday…no walk in the park…ugh, whatever! Cant believe im explaining my jokes in my own blog….how sad.)
Each day I do a lap….at least. Sometimes its more…really depending on the mood. I have my days where I feel like I could really do this. But just wait…..soon enough there are days where I need a tow truck and a crew of midgets to come help me through the day. Lol. Sometimes I wish that someone else could take the fat off me as if it was a fat suit…..work out…..then I would get it back….cause of course I cant just donate it!? Lol. Or if I could just go to the gym and get on a push up/sit-ups machine and it does the sit-ups/push ups for me. No self exertion involved. Why should I have to use my strength and get tired? (sounds crazy when I say it out loud. But hey….when I’m walking I have a lot of time to think)
Each day is a separate day. Ive noticed that I have to start over every day motivating myself to walk. Something so simple as walking a block or more thru out the apts….it still takes a strong effort at times. A physical and emotional one. Guilt trips, depression, anxiety, excitement, happiness, etc….I could name em all. It hasn’t even been quite a month and Ive been on a rollercoaster. There has been times that Ive wanted to quit. But that’s the simplest and easiest issue to get over. Mainly cause I know that’s not an option. But I still think it. I thought I heard that if you do something repeatedly for so many days it becomes a habit. What is that NUMBER?! Cause im waiting for this to be a habit and hopefully becomes easier. But until then I will make it work by talking myself into it. Daily.
I have so many things I am thankful for. After I’ve made it through each day I look back and know that its one less day I have to worry about. Its one more day that I’ve done SOMETHING. Its one more day. Its rough attempting to be better when you’ve made your self so comfortable doing the opposite. Im happy that I learned to give my issues and problems over to the only one who can handle them. God has made it possible for me to approach 30 days on tomorrow and still be at it. Yea, it’s a crazy struggle. But I know its possible.
Im always thinking fat thoughts, but in my head im skinny. How does that work?
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It never becomes easy bro! Trust me I struggle everyday and I have lost over 142 pounds. It can be done and I am living proof. I am just really proud of you sticking with it. Have you lost any weight? The hitting the gym is the easy part for me it's the eating that I struggle with. Everything you do in life you get rewarded with food. Man just keep with it and there is light at the end of the tunnel.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck to you man! Proud of you.
Kyle Nelson
Sup Kyle,
ReplyDeletePreciate the support man. 142! DAM!!! thats whats up man. I can only dream of a number that big. I cant even see myself getting there to be real with u. I have lost some since I started. I had lost 13 within the first 2 weeks. I will check in again soon and see where I stand. Man, u have accomplished alot. Im happy for u, amber and the kids. dam...142! Im gonna keep at it and let ya know.
You can walk all you want but if you don't watch your calories then it won't do you any good. Lower your calorie intake to 2,000.00 a day and keep walking and you should see results faster. Man I started at 375 pounds so if I can do it you can too. Don't say you can't see yourself getting there because I can and I know you can do it. When you put your mind and heart into something you can get it accomplished. I remember going to six flags and not being able to ride the rides and being embarressed beyond belief and now I am a season ticket holder and can ride every ride there easiely. It's the little things like that to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteTake it from me when I say you will be truely happy when you lose this weight. Small goals to start.
DON'T STOP! Stay with it. If you ever want to meet up man and talk or get advice let me know and we can do it. You have been a good friend and I care about you big dawg!
Later,
Kyle Nelson