13 pounds in 13 days

I have taken time off from blogging on the daily for so many different reasons. The main one being that I honestly don’t think that people will understand me or find what Im saying interesting in ANY kinda way. Im not sure if Im suppose to update it daily….or what. If it was up to me (and it is) I would post something daily. Im always thinking I have something to get off my chest. The problem with my A.D.D. is that I forget the stuff that I wanna say by the time I get to the Blog! Lol

Ive given up on walking over and over again. I kinda feel like the impact is soo small that its kinda pointless that I keep it up. I have though. Even though I can’t see exactly how far this will go and how it will play out…I can say that Ive been consistent with it and I am now on a 14 day streak of working out. My workout consists of me simply walking around my apt complex. I started thinking to myself that I had to do SOMETHING. In my head I was thinking that the easiest way to make this more adaptable and more of a lifestyle change is to integrate something small into my daily activities. Walking when Im bored or making myself do it atleast once a day was my start. I weighed myself on 4/15th and the doctor has it down at 398. I weighed myself again on yesterday(day #13)and I was down 13 Lbs. I was immediately let down. Thinking to myself that 13 pounds isn’t enough. Instead of wanting to do more….I had a few moments where I wanted to give up. It was double sided. I ended up not being happy about it. I want to….I just cant. Its like trying to be happy that your car note is paid, but you don’t have gas money and no one to borrow it from. Its like…wtf? Seems like you should just be happy to have the car. Well….maybe not a good metaphor…but whatever…its MY BLOG lol!

Im not eating healthy yet. Just walking. Since I was let down from the weight in Im thinking its time to maybe step it up a notch. Either exercise more or start watching my eating habits. Im kinda scared cause I figured that I would have quit by now. Im thinking that since I havent quit so far that making it more difficult will be the final straw. I already have excuses and find it hard sometimes to GET UP and move around, but I do. The eating part is waaay trickier. Its usually so easy to eat how Ive been eating. Remembering that ive had 29 years to perfect this ‘craft’. Now in a matter of moments Im attempting to modify it towards a different direction. None of the changes are BiG changes, but in my head their significant enough to question my dedication. I think sometimes that if I can already feel like Im gonna give up…why prolong it. MAYNE my head plays tricks on me like crazy. But Im still good.

Taking it one day at a time. Literally.

If u see me walkin’….feel free to join in.