media player going through my bootleg library. Of all the songs Ive heard, hearing the random play of Jill Scott's opening track called Blessed from 'The Light of the Sun' just reminded me that I have alot more to be happy about in oppose to try and holdin onto the negatives. Im in such a crazy spot. Im closing one chapter and now entering into a whole new era of manhood. (cant wait) Its so crazy that its hard to explain....so I wont bother, lol atleast not yet. Most likely it will be in a later blog. At the moment Im looking at myself as if Im a block of clay or a huge rock. thru discovery im finding that ive had the tools all along to mold that clay or chisel at that rock. Ive just never cared to learn the proper way of using them. I now am. Im Blessed.
Gonna get the nerve up to tackle weightloss again really soon, too. This time Im goin in with a lil more experience and some suprise attack plans. Im eventually gonna win the war. Its so weird trying to figure out all the ups and downs of life and then have a weight complex on top of all that. lol, God....for real? But, what doesnt kill ya makes ya stronger. If you dont hear that enough you eventually learn it. And its a little more literal when it comes to your health and weight struggles. Im going to fly to Vegas in a week and the thought of having to buy an extra seat keeps popping into play. Its funny when I see my brother try and explain his reasons as to why I wont need to purchase an extra seat. He swears Im skinny when he talks to me. Fat folks hate to be patronized. well, most any folks do. I know I will most likely have too. Feel like its already a damper to a last minute, 1/2 birthday, first time ever flying, or really going anywhere special trip. We will see.
Even knowing that weightloss brings on its own luggage Im still ready. Im game to try and sweat it out some more. lol. Im wrapping up a couple of things that Im wanting to give some extra attention to & once completed I will have been raised to a higher understanding of how to handle myself as a whole. from there everything else will fall into its place. then and only then will i have the necessities to make a dent. Im truly believing that. Im blessed. You can say that even before you see where the cards will fall. You can say that when you know who holds the cards.
Media Player bout to hit that Ross, Wayne & Chamillionaire mixtape. My whole mood bout to change. A storms a brewin'....lol
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