Stuck in the Middle

taking a deep breath, I pause....then exhale. "Again." He says. "Nice, everything sounds good in your chest." said the Dr. Wait here and the nurse will be in to take some blood. Shortly thereafter she strolls in. "Hi, Mr Gordon. You ready to get 'poked' today?" We laugh and continue to greet one another. All I can think of is dam....yet another test? another blood test or nerve test, or sleep test, or...etc. The list could go on and on. And just like that God sends me another lesson in life.

On the outside people may see one side but internally the real you can only be seen with keen eyes, an open mind, and a faithful heart. The real you may not be shy but is definetly selective. As well we should all be. Not everyone deserves a piece of you. Not everyone gets the priveledge, nor deserve the right and benefit of enjoying who the real you is. I feel that way because everyones intentions arent true....and one we are built up with layers to deter those away that arent there for the long-haul or those that may end up being a hinderance to your past.

God is working with me. My views or those of a Man thats traveling. A traveling man that has began his journey, doesnt see a end in sight, and is yet to understand the logistics, the purpose, or the expectations for this middle journey. I remember years back I made a deal with God. Its funny how I laughd it off in thinking that it had no real basis.....Its God for goodness sake. Who makes a deal with Him?? Well, he listens. & apparently if you DONT watch closely he will deliver on it and you wont even realize it. He did. Now that I look back I see that He delivered on his end and now its time for me to do the same. A deal is a deal.

Ive been trying to get focused, refocused, and focused some more on weightloss. But thats gonna have to take a back seat. Not a LONGER wait (cause its been waiting for bout 20 years now lol) but a little more time to get my my and heart inline. Im on a road and each time something new comes around I lose my way, become unattentive, and end up off course. Making up time and attempting to right and due wrongs in the process. The catch is....I end up no where. Stuck in one spot spinning around like a lost chicken and using whatever comes along as the next BIG thing to correct or focus on.

This time Im good. Im gonna continue to walk the path, enjoy my Travels, and start to anchor my life more as a whole and weightloss will fall in where it needs to be. Its still a definite priority. I just know that it needs other things to go along with it to truly work and Im getting everything in line to make that happen. Being stuck in the middle of a journey gives you time to reflect on the past and plan for the future. God has shown me that. He has shown me that its NOT about the test all the time. Sometimes its what you do while waiting on the results. Are you holding steadfast on the Word and know that all is well? Do you become worrysome and try alternate solutions with uncertanty?

The middle is ok.....its where you get the work done. Life is full of unexpected twists and turns. like a spiral staircase going upward.....you just never know whats around the corner....all you know is that its going up and thats the way you are headed too