Having a Twin.........

and as the words continued to flow right past my eyes. streaming as steady as huge clouds on a windy day. i looked off into space thinking that the moments were unreal. to actually hear and see first hand that I have a twin. there was someone out there that also shared the same build and makeup as I. they too were made with complexeties & simplicities that made them too, to much to be sum'd up in paraphrased words. For a new moment in time. NO, a new moment in LIFE.....I can start to look at my struggles differently. I have a twin. Im not alone.

listening to the way you complain about your struggle. a Twin! "why did i not know this" is all i can think. as the images weve painted move along as a slow winding slide show i hear more about your insecurities and doubts. You talk about the broken committments, the upsetting failed attempts, the multiple regroup/restarts, and even the blame game. I continue to stay in shock. Wow, thinkn to myself..., Why did I never know this. It sounds nye-eve to think that no one else is going through my struggle. that all of a sudden, my issues and problems are new to the world and no one has ever been thru it like me before. Duh, Billy...there is nothing new under the son. and that includes our experiences.

OK, now that i know there is someone out there going through the same thing...i will move on.

I do a 2 mile plus walk now. TWO MILES!!! wow, who woulda thought I would be pumpd about a 2 mile walk. Ive done it TWO DAYS STRAIGHT! Won TWO TICKETS to the comedy show tonite. TWO GIRLS told me that they felt that I was doin good and would keep it up. TWO Days of eating less than what I would normally eat. I could go on and on.

All is good. great last couple of days. and pump'd to see how the next few days will go.

I keep telling myself...."Dang, Billy...cant u dedicate atleast 50 days to this." eventually I go all the way down to trying to do it one hour at a time.