ok. so here goes. once again ive reached this point. the point where i say...OK, Im gonna do this. Im gonna do it for realz this time and there is NO giving up. Ive once again gotten to the point where Im setting goals, dates, workout plans, etc. its crazy. I could make a list of the times ive been at this point. each time i tell myself...no, i mean..each time I PSYCH myself into thinking that I can do this. I trick myself into thinking that it will be easier than the last times and i will see results, stick to it, and eventually end up SKINNY! lol. i really need to get it together.
The one thing about letting everyone know that im doing this is that people ask. they ask for many different reasons, but nevertheless they ask. i knew there would be some people that gave up on me from b4 i could start. there are some that ive probably disappointed. i really just wanna stop disappointing myself. when people ask for updates on my blog or where i am on my goals....it reminds me that i need to be doing something. and depending on the moment...i will either do something or feel bad that im not.
i can give u the list of reasons as to why i cant keep up a healthier lifestyle. or why i cant keep it consistent, but i will tell u that there has never been a lack of will and ambition. its the actions that lose ground....the want and need is there.
There is now an added motivation for me. Now Im jumpin' back in this and want to make grand results by the end of the year. I placed myself on a 60 day countdown to my birthday hoping that the short timeline will allow me a more impactful, yet unlengthy moment to break new ground. Its wierd. but its something else to try. lets see what all we can get done within the next 60 days.
By the way.....My most recent official weigh in says that Im now 3 more pounds lighter than the last weigh in. i took a friend to the weigh in. i was thinking that i would have gained about 10 back, but suprisingly enough i had lost an additional 3. that in itself is motivation.
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